I hurt that person one too many times. I don't deserve any form of forgiveness past this point, but he does deserve an acknowledgment. I do deserve to be show to the rest of you, so the tale is told well and judgement is past fairly.
I don't ask for understanding or support. I've done this by myself. My only request, beyond of what I can ask for, is for someone to pass this message to its rightful addressee.
[quote]I know I'm terrible at this, and my last message was not written in the right mind. Hell, I'm writing this when I should be at work now.
But I want to tell you that I understand my mistake now. I shouldn't have pushed into being there if you didn't want to. In hindsight, I took you as a friend for granted, pushing you bac or pushing you down. For all it's worth, I'm sorry.
The thing is that, I reacted so badly because I really can't stop thinking about our friendship. I don't focus at work, I barely even made it through the exams. Worse, I can't get my mind into writing.
It's all because I miss you. I wanted to reconnect with my best friend after (and still during) a really bad time. I guess I'm really past that now. We're past that.
Sorry for all this time. I will treasure what we had, but now I can see why you wouldn't.[/quote]
Please, no comments. Were there be comments, I'm bound by principle to answer them. This is not a request on my behalf, but for the sake of those who still haven't seen my worst.